Naze? (Why?) part3

Chinen’s diary :

Graduation day

God, I realize that I love her, but I can’t tell it to her until the graduation day ends, because we’ve been best friend for so long. I just don’t want to break our friendship. I’m too scared. Today was actually a perfect day for me to confess but also will be the last day I meet her. Why should I leave her? Why do I have to have this disease? Why is my life span only this much left? What should I do? I can’t sleep… because I’m afraid I won’t wake up again… Megu… what should I do? Should I just take this feeling to my eternity life…??

Without any beautiful words I left her today, itaiyo… it’s my first time giving up on something… it’s my first time I can’t get what I want… is it one kind of true love? Letting myself hurt to make my love happy…

I left her, without telling my problem… my feeling… and so my disease…

Is it ok?

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*Should be* the 1^st day of University

Everyone is attending their 1^st day as University student, but I can’t, my parents didn’t allow me to… They hired private lecturer… so my university is my home…

I wonder how is Megu’s. I heard She is attending a good university in Oosaka… I also have a friend there…. She is a good friend that I met in a community in internet…

She said she knows Megu… I think I will start to ask her about Megu every day…

Oh my … why can’t I just forget Megu?

I think that’s for today, oyasumi… I hope tomorrow I will get to know Megu’s daily …

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1^st time heard Megu’s daily

Anger. It’s the 1^st feeling that I felt when I heard Megu’s daily. Shiba told me that there’s someone that makes you hurt.

Shiba told me to try sending letter to Megu to cheer her up and Shiba will try to protect Megu. I accepted it. But, Shiba told me not to tell her that Shiba and I know each other. I don’t know why but I accepted it. Shiba said that she will help me to send it to her without her noticing where am I and our connection.

I will send a letter to Megu every week starting tomorrow… I’m so excited. :)

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After 3 months sending letters to Megu

Shiba said Megu is busy so she’d never gave any answer to my letter, and Shiba said that since now Megu will be totally busy so Shiba told me not to send letter to Megu for a while until Shiba told me to. And I accepted it again. I don’t want to disturb Megu’s study.

Ah~I hope to write letters again soon…

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After 3 months stop sending letters to Megu

Shiba told me that Megu got a boyfriend today…

My heart stopped beating for a second…

Why?? WHY???!!!! I hate it.

I felt my blood run crazily to my head.

I WILL STEAL MEGU!!! I WILL!!! And if I should, I WILL KILL MEGU’S BOYFRIEND!!!!!

I have to rush… my life is just 3 days left…

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The truth is Shiba is jealous to Megumi. Shiba always pretending to be the 1^st one that help Megumi, but she is the real culprit behind the terror to people around Megumi. She wants to make Megumi suffer and lost her best friend. But Shiba didn’t expect that Chinen will show up.

Shiba doesn’t know what to do. Shiba is scared. She is trying to cover up her crime with lies. She used Megumi’s cellphone as Megumi to send bad mails to Yamada and Chinen.

To Yamada :

Yamada, I hate you. I fell in love to someone new now.

Leave me. I don’t want to meet you again.

Megu

To Chinen :

You are the worst best friend I’ve ever met.

Chinen, I’ll never accept your love.

Megu

But Shiba made mistake. The mail that she sent to Yamada and Chinen obviously seems not Megumi’s word to Yamada and Chinen.

After got the mail, Yamada felt there’s someone that wants to break his relationship with Megumi. And then he rushed to Megumi’s place.

Like Yamada, Chinen is noticing something wrong too. Chinen knows Megumi for so long. Chinen knows that Megumi will never try to tell something bad to people even though she is hurt.

To be continued….